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02 February 2013 @ 08:49 pm
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me
 
 
28 January 2013 @ 03:04 am
there are things in life that i never seem to learn. and now it scares me. having something so important that i wanna keep close to my heart. i start fearing about how these flaws might end up being the death of me. my feelings are often at an extreme. if i love a person, there's literally nothing in the world i'd care about. ive always thought that's how it should be, putting all ur heart in it. but isnt this kind of love too overwhelming and burdensome? I need to learn to keep my feelings under control. no one wants to be so suffocated. but holding them back, it upsets me. And being upset is yet another thing im feeling too often. as much as there's a million reasons for me to be upset. i dont want to be... i want to learn how to not be upset or at least learn how to pretend that im not. and this is just incredibly hard, especially when what im going tru.... is really extremely upsetting. im not the only one going tru shits and feeling upset doesnt help a thing. it makes things worse. it makes me forget about how happy i used to be. when ur mood changes, everything else will take its turn to change. i need to remember how it was like before, the feelings we used to have. there's a lot of silly things i would do without a second thought and i in turn always expect others to do the same. this, is something so bad for me. these expectations have brought about many unhappiness throughout my life and it's probably time to stop. with unrealistic expectations comes useless disappointment. expectations for my friends, families and what not. that's not how love should be. love is about giving without expectation of anything in return isnt it? 

saying all these is not going to change a thing. it's not easy to do that but i need to constantly keep them in mind. let me just start by telling myself things are good and that i am happy.
 
 
26 January 2013 @ 03:16 pm
"That woman believes that fate is when the thread of her heart connects quietly with another’s. She thinks that that invisible string is what allows people to feel and understand each other, even with the slightest tug. That woman feels uneasy when one heart suddenly gets mixed together with lots of different ones. So, Fate, please—don’t pull my heart so hard…"
 
 
19 January 2013 @ 07:05 pm
If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side
 
 
16 January 2013 @ 12:04 am
A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.

I don't wanna waste the weekend,
If you don't love me, pretend
A few more hours, then it's time to go.
And as my train rolls down the East coast,
I wonder how you keep warm.
It's too late to cry, too broken to move on.

Still I can't let you be,
Most nights I hardly sleep.
Don't see what you don't need, from me.

Misplaced trust and old friends,
Never counting the regrets,
By the grace of God, I do not rest at all.
and New England as the leaves change;
The last excuse that I'll claim,
I was a boy who loved a woman like a little girl.
I was a girl who loved a man like a little boy.